A Short (kinda) Reflection

I know I'm technically not in Montgomery anymore but I thought one more (probably) post a good idea. I've now been back in Mobile for almost a week and it has been different (notice the lame, obvious, and vagueness of that word?). I back at home, with a new list of things to covet and get frustrated/angry over. I don't really feel like I've sunk back into my local community yet.

I've been more or less on my own, meeting up with friends here and there (and going to see Inception which was amazing). The thing confronting me now is how do I continue what I've learned this summer and walking towards what I know to be true. I'm still trying to figure that out while processing (and at times avoiding processing because I don't want to think or delve deep in my sin).

I'm a racist, partial, selfish, prideful whore (see below if you need explanation) who is somehow saved by a grace given by one who has such a love to love someone like me. I want to fight this 'American Dream' Christianity that has infected me and many others. The question is how do I best do this? What steps practically do I take? For now feel free to ask me anything. I'll probably tell you.

I know I can't do this alone, and so my quest for like-minded people in Mobile starts. I know I'm messed up and need the body so body, here I come. I'm going to walk and live life with you, whether you like it or not (this is my attempt to be funny).

To everyone in Montgomery and those elsewhere I had the pleasure of spending the summer with, I miss you. Fred, Red, Nick, Tora, Sophia, give the kids hugs for me and tell them I miss them and plan to come visit as soon as I can.

But this phase of my life is over, and it's time to move forward. So, by the grace of God, I'm going to be all here, even though I can't stop missing everyone. This summer wrecked my world and hopefully changed my life forever. I don't want to forget. I don't want to step back. I want to live for Jesus, all for Jesus, sacrificing my comfort and desire to please others, living counter-culturally for the Kingdom of God.

(When I say I'm a whore, I basically mean I go from thing to thing or person to person, anything other than God in hopes to find satisfaction when I've been redeemed by Jesus)